Ya know... Maybe it is me.?!?! Idk why I can't seem to do what I'm supposed to, I don't like hearing that I'm wrong all the time, so why don't I do the right thing? Or do what I'm supposed to, instead of being called an idiot all the fucking time? I hate being belittled, and hate being talked Down to, but I also have opinions and feelings and thoughts. I'm sick of being told that they're wrong. If there is fact behind what I'm wrong about then why do I not know it? Am I really that stupid? Ignorant? A moron? An imbecile? Or is it that I'm just lazy, or tired, or have given up? Why don't I try as hard as I used to to prove people wrong? Why don't I try harder, where's my drive? Or am in just in another common abusive relationship where this time it's just emotional terrorism instead of physical abuse??? This and all of the above I'm just unsure of. I don't understand the world and people. I don't understand how there can be such good and such evil and both installed in everyone!?!? I don't understand why some learn fast and some learn slow. Some get it and some don't. Why some think they are better than everyone else and some think they just aren't worth it! I am lost! Beyond all comprehension of what the fuck is going on in the world, or with me???