Was it really that bad all the time?

It wasn't for me. I don't get it. Why would he just throw everything away. He just bought "me" a new couch, and we have this beautiful baby, apartment, and nice things together. Now we are going to both be uncomfortable and have so much to fix. 

I feel like when I leave here (because he says he gets to keep the apt because he has more to move), its going to be like Hurricane Chris coming through, and leave me with nothing, that's what he did last time. After all the work I've done on fixing up this apartment, I have to leave? I have to change everything. Wouldn't he want anything and everything for his son? Then why wouldn't he leave everything here so nothing would change for his son. 

The night we fought, he said that Landon was the only reason he's still here, but I guess he still wasn't a good enough reason to want to work out something like this. If it really was that bad all the time then why didn't he leave sooner?   

There must have been a reason he stayed so long? Unless he was just figuring a way out!   I don't know what the hell happened. I wish he would talk to me. I wish we could figure out a way to work this out. 

The person I was Friday wasn't me. He knows that. I don't know why he cant overlook it and try to work on what problems we do have and move forward from this. All i can do is say I am sorry and mean it. I cannot fix this for him, but if he would talk to me, I know there is something we could do. I thought he loved me????? 

How does that go away in just a weekend? Unless he never did!